32 & 31...we skipped a day

Sorry bout the skip in day, but there was no Internet connection last night for some strange reason. So I couldn't get on and tell you anything. Bummer uh? Well, okay what'd we do yesterday, day 32, well we went to Church. Watched some strange video...not real sure what the point of it was yet or why we were watching it, but oh well. Then after that, umm I finished book #5, which by the way really ticked me off!!! There are actually 2 other series connected to this series. The Redemption Series, then The Baxter Series, and after that the Sunrise Series!!! So here I was thinking I had all the books to the series and I don't! And to top it off I didn't even start with the right one!!! I was so irritated - I need a library!!! But I don't want to make the 40 minute drive...so I guess I'll live. Needless to say the books are very good! Ashlynn & Nana made cookies, we ate dinner, the kids road bikes and I walked down the road a ways and back. Then I talked to David on the phone...then the kids and I decided to have some fun!!! Guess what we did? We jumped on the four-wheeler and went out in the pasture and did donuts around the hay bails!!! Talk about fun, we were having a blast. It was great!

Today, day 31, I got up walked down the road a good ways and back. My goal is that before we leave I can walk all the way down the road and back, the total would be 8 miles. It's 4 miles from one end to the other. After that had breakfast, took a shower, and we went to see my grandparents. I hate going to see them anymore. It's just not the same. If they just didn't live in that Nursing home, I just can't stand it. I hate walking in there, they way it smells - how did I ever work in one of those places?! And Grandpa he just sat there and stared out the window, like he'd give anything to be sitting outside rather than in there on his bed. He never said if he did or not though. Honestly, I did most the talking. I remember when he used to tell us stories, or tell me some joke that would definitely go over my head and have others saying "blonde moment Tonya" and now he doesn't. I can't remember the last time I heard him try to pull something over my head. It's just sad.
I miss walking into their house, finding Grandpa asleep in his chair with the royals game on and Grandma fiddlin around the kitchen with this or that. I used to love visiting with them and now I want to but I just, I just don't love it as much anymore. There's no royals on the radio, no dogs barking out back, no finding grandpa cleaning fish out by the shed or bent over getting stuff from his garden, there's no grandma cleaning up the kitchen or rollin' out dumplin's, there's no sitting on the swing outside with either of them or going for a walk down the road with Grandma, or target practicing with Grandpa - there's no being lazy and listening to him tell stories and hearing Grandma fuss at him in the background for telling one on her.......all there is, is that smelly nursing home, with my Grandma trying to make the best of it and make friends with all she meets, and Grandpa sitting there with that sad sad look on his face. In so many ways I feel like I've already lost him, but I know when I actually do it will still hurt. I love them so much. God, please take of them here on earth and when they meet you in heaven.
Anyway - after visiting kids and I ran to walmart, found some tanks on clearance, several of mine have holes in them! And we got some other things like computer paper, bread, and water bottles. Then we stopped at McDonald's and grabbed lunch and came home. Since then I've checked my email, blogged, and now I'm going to go kick the soccer ball around with the kids and later...we're doing donuts around the hay bails again! I'll have to get some one who knows how to work a camera out there! So I can show you at some point!!! Everyone have a great evening!
~T~