Within the Echos...

...it feels empty, sad, and yet it's right. The packers arrived today to pack up our home for the big move. I thought it would take them all day, they were done by noon. Amazing uh? They worked so fast and before I knew it there were boxes stacked all over my home, saying "the time is here".

The loaders also called this morning to see if it was okay if they went ahead and came out to start loading furniture and boxes. I thought, yeah why not lets just get it all over with. I'm just so done, I'm beyond done...I don't even know how to describe it. I feel like I'm in limbo and I'm afraid I may just feel that way for the next 2 months. I'm tired of sorting, tired of organizing, tired of making decisions, tired of going through this and through that...I am just simply done.

It feels very alone in this house tonight, music choice is on. David is so exhausted, he's been in bed for a few hours...and I could be in bed to but I just felt the need to blog before I no longer have the chance. I don't know the next time I'll be able to get on to the internet or anything. Some family have internet and some don't...so it will just depend on where I'm at over the next 2 months, but I promise to try to blog at some point.

It was interesting watching the Loaders load our furniture and things today. They do it so different from how they do state side moves. They pack it all very tightly. They don't want anything moving around and they wrap everything in paper before they load it. They loaded it these giant wooden crates. Each approximately holding 1000 pounds.

Apparently we are allowed 8000 pounds and today they loaded 5 of those crates. So assuming their estimation is correct we still have 3000 pounds that we can take with us. However, there really is not much left in this house. I would not be surprised if just one more crate is all we need. Our bed, a few boxes, and a few things from upstairs and that's it.

I think we will be okay on our weight limit that I've been so worried about. Now as long as we find a home that holds it all when we get there...we'll be doing great. I'm praying for a cute, adorable, yet affordable home with 4 bedrooms if at all possible. haha.

It was not easy watching my scrapbook stuff be packed up today. I know I shouldn't be so attached to a material possession, but its more than that. It's our memories, it's our photo's, and if anything happens to any of them I will just be heart broke. So I'm praying they along with everything else make it safely to England. I can't wait to unpack it all. Crazy uh? I always enjoy the unpacking part.

I went out to dinner with the Mom's at Olive Garden last night, it was really good, we had a good turn out. 18 of us there, crazy! However, it gave me the chance to see a few more people one last time and give them a hug bye. Some day I'm gonna surprise them all and show up at a Mom's Night Out in the future. I can't wait for that...but until then I'm going on this 4-year-long adventure (if not longer) and I'm going to see as many things as I can and take as many pictures as I can and share my adventure with them as best as I can. They may never get to go to England, but just maybe I can bring a piece of England to them.

I'm gonna miss all the Mom's so much, along with a few other friends I've made here. I'll never forget this place...I think a piece of my heart just might always be here. These women changed my life, they helped me through so much, and I just pray that they know they made a difference. That their ministry is one of worth and that it is also one full of promise.

I'm trying really hard not to cry. My friend Jenny doesn't make that easy. I love her to death and I just pray that she'll be okay. She and I've been so close and I've done this friendship over the miles thing a few times...so I just hope she knows that even though she can't see me and we can't exactly go for lunch...there's a piece of me still with her. I love you Jen! Hold your head high!

Okay, well before I get to thinking to much more and then start crying I'm going to go get me some sleep. The last of our things will be loaded tomorrow and the next morning I'm outta here (2 months with family and then off we go) - so wish us luck and say some prayers for us. I'll talk to you all again soon!

~T~